I've always wandered why I seem to go in this ridiculous, never
ending cycle of being completely complacent and insanely thirty for the Word. I
let my own self-interest and laziness get in the way, and fall so far behind in
my walk that it's almost like I'm walking backwards. Then other times, I look
around and realize that my surroundings and I look so much alike that I can't
tell where one ends and the other begins. So, I start running. Hard. Sprinting
into territory where His love is blatant and unhindered by my feelings of being
too sinful to handle. But then, a few days, months, weeks later...I am a
chamelion again.
The greatest thing is...He never
tires of chasing after me. He is infinitely patient and infinitely loving. He
wants me, and even though I am horrible at showing it...I want Him too. Even
though I am so insanely scared of actually getting what I ask for, I want to
live a life that is according to His plan. What that will be...only He knows,
and only He is in control.
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